Duality Games

I'm tired.

It's not that life is getting me down. I still love life. But I just don't like the way it's lived in this world.

This is a world of opposites -- good-bad, hot-cold, etc. And frankly, neither side holds a lot of appeal for me any more.

Don't get me wrong. I believe in doing good and all the positive sides of our pairs of opposites. And do my best to reflect them in my life.

But I'm just not into taking sides when they start fighting with their opposites. I'll let them duke it out. And I'll wait somewhere in the middle until they tire of their conflicts and get down to the business of moving forward.

I guess I'd describe myself as a shadow warrior. I have always walked that line between the light and the dark. Not because I'm enamored with the dark side; I'm not.

It's because I know there's light within the dark, too. And both sides are within me, always at odds, each calling me, "Pick me, pick me." Kinda like the cartoons where the character has a little angel whispering in one ear, and a little devil whispering in the other. And it is continually torn between the two.

I've explored both sides, and frankly, am tired of their battles for supremacy in my life, and in our world. I prefer to find a way to unify them, to integrate them into a single whole. Because I'm both of them, and I don't like picking sides within me. I want to accept all of me, not just part and deny the rest.